April 2011
46 posts
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gracetalking asked: more like a comment- why are people scared of truth?I don't know. I can't stand the fact that this world is not inclined to speak their mind... they just say what's pleasant and then blow up later.. I think real true honesty is uncommon and is so precious. Wow, I can't even tell you how much your writings and videos have made me realize just how much I have that is unspoken...
summerwillbebeautiful asked: i'm inspired by your honestly and ability to convey your emotions,thoughts & problems in such an open way - allowing for judgement by the world. i envy the freedom you gain from this, i only wish to be able to put my thoughts into writing as well as you do. how do you do it?...& no matter what is going on now in your life, i've learn't that unexpected events can lift you up...
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter,...”
– Dr. Seuss
Higher Self, Lower Self, Mask.
Regarding an ex-girlfriend.
The most common story I tell myself is that she’s to blame. If she weren’t so fucked up, so afraid of commitment, so entwined with her mother, so out of touch with her anger, so frigid, so narcissistic, and so unable to get past her own shit—we could work it out. The problem with women is women. They’re crazy. They can’t be trusted. And because they can never...
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MORE FEEDBACK
“I find your honesty humbling. I admire the strength you’ve shown in just saying what you’re feeling at that one moment in time & not caring who hears it. It’s for you. That makes complete sense. You’ve inspired me to try & be more honest with myself. I’m so shy & it bugs the fuck out of me, but I think I’m finally ready to try & discover...
FEEDBACK ON WOMAN ISSUES PART 1.
FAN WRITES: Yikes. Man, I was a fan for so long. This is NOT the way to get women or anyone for that matter - to think you’re cool or fun to be with. I’d be afraid. Do you have no one in your life to tell you this is frighteningly self-destructive? Write a play. Make a movie out of it. NOT. THIS.
I WRITE: Thanks for the comment. It helps to clarify my intention. I’m not...
narcissamalfoy asked: Would you ever do a vlog that answers questions from fans?
slpenrod asked: Why do you video blog rather than write?
Azure Ray - Sleep
This finally feels true
I’m willing to give up everything to get what I want.
Want to let go of SHAME? Sing along loudly...
Do we see leaders as human?
“Do we feel them either as better than or worse than us? One of the things that has helped me the most with my own leadership was to see what I expected from leaders—how I tore them down when they didn’t do it “right” or idealized them only to see their weakness later. And the more I worked on my contempt for leaders or my competition with them or the place where I...
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This saved me today. Thanks DYJ
drinkyourjuice:
I ran into my prom date at the public library the other week after not seeing him for years and he said, “We should get a drink sometime.”
I was taking a break from covering cat news to write a sketch that heavily featured a box of turned-on vibrators, a fact that he found funny and fitting, but made me feel like he’d caught me mid-fart. “It sounds like you’re exactly where...
oldgreystone asked: is it harder to be honest with other people or with yourself?
This didn't work.
HER: I'm coming to LA next Tuesday.
ME: Where are you staying?
HER: We haven't figured that out yet.
ME: Who's we?
HER: My sister, my friend and me.
ME: (beat) You can stay with me.
HER: Really?
ME: Yeah.
HER: Are you sure?
ME: Yeah.
HER: It's not gonna be weird between us?
ME: What do you mean?
HER: I mean I don't want it to be weird between us.
ME: Well, I'm definitely going to try and fuck you the whole time you're here.
HER: David!
Leonard Cohen — Chelsea Hotel No. 2
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She did not trust me.
This would manifest most frequently with overtly suspicious and condemning looks if my phone beeped at night with a new text message or if I talked about another woman or was too friendly with a waitress. It could also manifest in outright accusation. Sometimes I would reassure her, sometime I would get angry and defensive. Always I would feel victimized and violated. It hurt.
My Lower Self
I will destroy you. You fucking pussy. You stand there like some fucking swami know-it-all messiah. Bullshit. I see you, asshole. I see you working. I will undermine you. I will take you down. I will annihiate you. You will feel my boot on your face. I will make you suffer. You will pay for your sins. I will lock you away and never let you out. You will never see light again. You will...
My Higher Self
The energy comes directly from the ground up, through my legs and pelvis, into my torso and up out the top of my head, clean. I feel relaxed, present, open, strong, powerful, compassionate. No judgement. I’m not reaching for things. I’m not forcing anything. I’m gentle but solid. I’m not afraid or ashamed of my pleasure, whether it’s a beer or a woman. I’m not...
Secrets
I keep secrets (or lie) to protect my identity/image/mask. It generally comes up around wanting the world to see me (and for me to see myself) as having it all together. Though I can feel my growth in this area, there is still a habitual pattern of concealment. I don’t like to reveal any physical injuries so I won’t be seen as weak or defective. I don’t like to share my fears around money and...
“Being a person is not something one can do. It is not a performance. It may...”
– Alexander Lowen from Fear of Life
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